Day 56- Ups and Downs!

Cor blimey! Have I had enough of Saudi! The weather is glorious outside, the temperature is in the 80's and I am cooped up in my appartment. Don't get me wrong I am living in luxury but I have so many things happening that the last thing I want to be doing is staying indoors and following a structured plan.

I'm too excited, nervous, anxious, delirious about my immediate future- Have a look below at what's going on that is making me crazy and slightly stressed! (note to self, must re introduce my calming meditation cds) AAAAAAAAAAArrrggh I'm too excited for all that!

1. I'm leaving Saudi in 4 weeks and 5 days! Exciting!
2. I'm surrounded in boxes with the ominous task of packing! Stressful!
3. I am going to be living with my beloved Fiance. V.Exciting!
4. We are going to have to get back into the swing of living together again! no comment ;-)
5. My mum is coming to Bahrain for Christmas all the way from Florida!  V. exciting!
6. We are going for a weekend to Dubai and on a Hot Air balloon ride over the city! V. V. Exciting!
7. I have my first Masters module due at the end of the month! Stressful!
8. I am getting married in 4 months V. V. Exciting!
9. I have to plan the day! V. stressful
10. I have friends and family coming over from the UK for the event. V. Exciting and V. Stressful!
11. I don't think my Fiance's family can make the 6 hour flight, due to health constraints. V. sad!
12. I am leaving my position as a Royal health coach. V. sad
13. I am leaving my financial security to start up on my own again. V. stressful
14. I can't promote my services as a Nutritionist in Bahrain due to red tape issues. V.stressful!
15. I am promoting my services as a Personal trainer to the residents of Bahrain. exciting!
16. I am anxious about making a success of it. (normal self doubt, note to self; I can do it, I do have the knowledge and expertise, I've trained the royal family for goodness sake!!)
17. I want to look amazing in my already amazing looking wedding dress.

So there you have it! No wonder I am losing control now and again. We put so much pressure on ourselves it is no wonder that we are all suffering from stress overload. To be honest I have had a week, where I have blown my structured eating plan. ( I had a week of overwhelming 'to do' madness!) Even though I still ate whole foods and did not eat junk, processed foods, alcohol or chocolate; there was still more food coming in compared to calorie expenditure. (Hence why I am so looking forward to getting to Bahrain, so I can be more active!!)

If I used my PMA and actually stopped feeling so bad about falling of the wagon (so to speak) I would see that there are So many positive aspects and that I AM on track; everything IS under control and I WILL achieve all my goals and aspirations because I am an intelligent, organized, self sufficient, woman in the prime of my life!!
Phew, my mania has subsided and I am back to business!

Thanks for letting me get that off my chest, I feel So much better!
talk soon!